WOW, its been forever since i've been on here... i guess thats a sin..lol..       

anyways i wanted to say that  im graduating soon in abit 2months, and im very excited about it... YAY, congrats to me.. this yr ive dealt with some retarted bullshit, with ppl, especially guys in general... anyways i  g2g, i dont want to borre ppl... ttyl, keep in touch..

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 Ok... WoW.. i havent been on my site since Aug... Ouch... i guess im really bad at keep my site up to date with my life... Anyways rite now im sick, i have a cold, stomach flu, etc...

Things bw my ex and i, r good, we have class together which is good and we sit beside eachother and talk more... The last time i was at his house in the summer, becuz i was on lunch break at driving school, we ended up messing around, nothing big, but making out... So things were alil weird the two first days, but now we look at something that brought us closer... Were actaully hanging out tmarrow after school, so that will be interesting to see what happens.. Btw i met this new guy at my school, who sits beside me in math class and his name is Charles, and hes really handsome... were always together at school, and ppl keep asking if theres anything bw us, like if were dating... ppl also tell me i should go for him, but the question is, i dunno if i like him, i dunno if i should... i mean we get alone great and have alot in common, but i dont want to end up liking him and he doesnt like me back...

On Oct 27th, im going to see Metallica in concert and i get wait..

Ok this all started happening on thursday nite when my ex bf and i were talking late at nite on the phone.... I hope someone can help me figure out how to ask him about his feelings towards me or if he meant anything by what he was asking and talking about that nite....

i have a problem and i need help... im so confused and mixed up that im not sure what i should do... i just started talking to en ex bf recently and when we were talking he kept talking about some really good times we had together and saying how we make a great couple and fit like a puzzel and had asked if i still am in love with him... and i didnt know what to say becuz i dont want to get hurt again, and im not sure if im setting myself up to getting hurt again, but i dont want to lose him as a friend... im confused about my feelings, becuz i do care about him but i dont want to c myself get hurt again... he wants to get close again but i dunno how to be strong for myself and not fall head over heels... he also kept talking about having good times together this yr and more to come and he said i still mean alot to him and he'd do anything for me... he knows me so well and i know him so well, im scared im going to show my weaknesses and i'll be left with nothing but pain... could there be a chance he could miss me and still cares about me more then a friend...? please help me, i need some advice...

i cant ask becuz i dont want to be rejected , but just they things he was saying just made me think, i know he likes me but is it enough to get back together, i dunno wanna just be friends, i mean him and i could be the best of friends becuz we know everything about eachother and we had sex together for our first time.. i want to be close to him, and he wants me to be able to talk to him more and trust him more, but what if he wants to be friends that fuck instead of anything more... like a relationship.. i still care about him about alot, i'd go crazy if anything terrible happend to him... im lost and confused...


AHHHH maybe im crazy and someone should put me in the crazy house in a white padded room...

i hope he misses me, but i hope he just wasnt saying those things cuz he knows that hes an important person to me and he knows me so well he knows he can get me back... i cant ask him cuz i dont have guts to ask him... i dunno what i'd even ask him... i dont want to seem too forward cuz if he doesnt miss me, i dont want to scare him and then him thinking i fell for him or anything.... but the confusing thing is, if he doesnt miss me, y would he all of a sudden ask if i still loved him, and talk about all the good times we had together and say how this yr were going to have many more good times together... i hate mind games and i hate being fucked over.... what does it sound like is happening... him missing me, or me getting fucked over and left for pain....? i cant figure it out but i dont want to ask him, cuz im not brave like that, and if i ask him and he says he was just being nice, i'll look like a retard and a fool... anyways if he is just being nice, hes a good sweet talker... " i recently found a pic of u, and it made me happy ".... im so screwed........ am i blind..? i must be blind cuz i cant see that he's screwing me over... y would he want me back, when he broke off the relationship..? would i give him a second chance...? i dunno, maybe , maybe not...!

how do u ask someone if they miss u when they were the one who broke up with u....? i do care about him, but i thought i was over him and now im not sure if i am cuz im confused cuz i dont know if he does miss me and i dont want him thinking i can never get over him

ok... my feelings r coming back for him, but i dont want to get my hopes up cuz if he does reject me and was playing mind games with me.... i have a problem trusting ppl and believeing them on some things... i have a problem with trusting ppl with my feelings, and i hate when ppl play mind games with ppl...

whats the simplest way to ask him how he feels about me, like if he misses me or not and if theres a chance if we can give it a second chance with the relationship... ?

what is the easiest way to ask him if he misses me or if theres a chance that we can give the relationship a second chance, like how do u ask someone those question or bring it up... he's never been open like that b4, so it all caught me off gaurd and thats how its confusing, cuz hes never been like that towards me... i do want to have a second chance with the relationship... but i know if i ask, and he turns me now i look like a twat and feel like a fool... what should i say, how or what should i ask him without going to far out of my comfert zone on asking him....??? please i need everyones and anyones advice i can get

Hey

well lets see, i woke up at 2pm and ive been sitting around just watching tv and talking to ppl on AIM.. but im in an alrite mood, but still feeling kinda shitty, and been sick for 4days now.. :( but feeling better then i was for the past three days now..

3 more weeks until we go back to school... Last year of high school, then in june graduation... WOOT, YAY.. then off to college in fall of 2005...

1. Starting Time: 10:08pm

2. Best Friend(s): Adam, Amanda and Jamie

3. Longest Friend: wow i dunno who to say
4.Shortest Friend: Grant and Mike
5.Funniest Friend: Um, i dunno prolly darren
6. Smartest Friend: Zack
7. Dumbest Friend: idno....we all have our dumb moments
8. Shyest Friend: dunno
9. Boring person: uhhh, no one
10. Who Do u Get advice from: my mom and adam and amanda
11. Height: 5'0ft
12. D.O.B: 15/12/87

13. Righty / Lefty: Right
14. Eye color: Brown
15. Shoe Size: 4and a half to 6 and a half

16. Shoe Brand(s): uhhh, flip flops and convers
17. Do u Crack any Body Parts: anything i can
18. Pets: Dog - Emma

19. Siblings: none, besides my half brother
20. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: nope

21. Crush?: not really...just have the hots for david beckham
22. Liked a Teacher: eww no
23. Killed something: besides spiders, no
24. Laughed so hard you Peed your Pants:nope
25. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: not for awhile

26. Ran Into a Glass Door: twice now and i wasnt drunk
27. Ever Cussed: yes..
28. Got an Operation: yes

29. Ditched a Class: yes
30. Ate all your Halloween Candy in One Night: nope

32. Got drunk?: yes

33. Gotten hit by a car: no

34. Ran into a parked car: yeah lol

******Which One is Better*****
59. Coke or Pepsi: coke
60. Taco Bell or McDonald’s: taco bell
61. Cats or Dogs: dog
62. Coffee or Tea: coffee

63. Sour or Sweet: sour
64. Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
65. Cake or Cookies: cookies
66. Sunrise or Sunset: sunset
68. Summer or Spring: i like winter and summer equally

69. Lights on or off: off

70. Ocean or Pool: pool....with waves? no fishes can bite me.. LOL

71. Carpet or Wooden floor: carpet cuz its more cozy, but wood is easy to clean

******Your favorite******
72. Food: anything thats good, no fish
73. Car:
******Which One is Better*****
59. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
60. Taco Bell or McDonald’s: taco bell
61. Cats or Dogs: both
62. Coffee or Tea: coffee

63. Sour or Sweet: sour
64. Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
65. Cake or Cookies: cookies
66. Sunrise or Sunset: set..cuz then its night..
68. Summer or Spring: i like winter and summer equally

69. Lights on or off: off

70. Ocean or Pool: pool....with waves?

71. Carpet or Wooden floor: wood

******Your favorite******
72. Food: anything thats good, no fish
73. Car: old muscle american cars

74. Past Time: ....
75. Sport: football, basketball, lacrosse, boxing
76. Movie: action,comedy, not kill bill
77. Candy: anything sour...
78. Drink: pepsi and coke

79. Animal: tiger
80. Holiday: My birhday
81. Quote: ' sex is math, add the bed, subtract the clothes, divide the legs and multiply '

82. Band: alexisonfire ( metal,alternative,punk and hardcore )
84. Book: i hate reading

85. Radio Station: 102.1 the edge

86. Place: Home ( Ontario , Canada )

******In The Future******
87. Where do you want to live? : Anywhere where gods ministry needs me..preferably in Europe, Bora Bora

88. What do you want to be when you grow up? hotel mangenment and bartending

89. What car? old american muscle car

******Random Questions******
90. Define True Love: Dunno, havent felt it...but i suppose ill know it when i feel it....i could define fake love though.... hard to explain from my point a view, cuz rite now i dont know

91. What Are You Wearing Right Now: big baggie t-shirt

93. Favorite day of the week: Sat

94. Who was the last person you received mail from? Michael Singh

95. What time do you go to bed? Late.

96. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back? umm this isnt an email lol

98. If you could be with one person (SERIOUSLY) who would it be: ummm, idno, the person im meant to be with for the rest of my life...

99. If You could have one super power what would that be? : Immunity to emotions

100.What time do you wake up in the morning: late unless i have work

101. Finishing time: 10: 31pm

74. Past Time: ...
75. Sport: lacrosses,boxing,football, and soccerr
76. Movie: breakfast club, ( any action movies , besides kill bill )
77. Candy: anything sour...
78. Drink: coke,pepis,water

79. Animal: tiger
80. Holiday: My birhday
81. Quote: ' i was here but now im gone i left my name to turn u on those who dream, dream me well those who dont go to hell'

82. Band: alexisonfire,blink,green day, keep it up, ( alternative,punk,hardcore,metal )
84. Book: i hate reading books

85. Radio Station: 102.1 the edge

86. Place: home ( Ontario , Canada )

******In The Future******
87. Where do you want to live? : Anywhere where gods ministry needs me..preferably in Europe, or cali, or bora bora

88. What do you want to be when you grow up? hotel mangenment and bartending

89. What car?

******Random Questions******
90. Define True Love: Dunno, havent felt it...but i suppose ill know it when i feel it....i could define fake love though....

91. What Are You Wearing Right Now: Black Volcom collared shirt, A cowboy hat, Khaki Anchor Blue shorts, Black Circles belt, Brown Airwalk Flip-flops

93. Favorite day of the week: Sat

94. Who was the last person you received mail from? Kathleen Downs

95. What time do you go to bed? Late.

96. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back? umm this isnt an email lol

98. If you could be with one person (SERIOUSLY) who would it be: ummm, idno, the person im meant to be with for the rest of my life...

99. If You could have one super power what would that be? : Immunity to emotions

100.What time do you wake up in the morning: late unless i have work

101. Finishing time: 11:39